Still Waiting

Saturday, July 09, 2005

just went for a jog just now, with my cousins and uncles.. woooo.. today's run was damn long.. at least 6 or 7km.. now my thighs are aching.. =( but bo bian. i'm just getting out of size liao.

so we went to have our dinner at the bedok centre.. not at the interchange, but somewhere which is not so accessible la.. well.. the food there is nice, n they ordered SOO much that i've gained many weight AGAIN. z.

well.. on my way to the food centre, i saw this accident.. or rather, the aftermath.. the hurt motor cyclist was lying the the road and two of his friends beside him.. that motor cyclist has blood over his face, and i feel so.. argh.. duno how to explain.. but its just not good.. i really hope that guy is alright.. i think he was buying pizza home, cos there is a box lying around.. sighs. imagine how worried his family will get, when there is no son/brother reaching home with all their dinner...

sighs. while i was jogging, i was thinking about life. why does everyone says life is fragile? well look here then. it takes so many good long years to nurture and bring up a human, and when they die, they die in less then a day and off the years and effort of bringing him/her up. sad huh.

was talking to my aunt too, about that incident we both saw, and she said that nowadays there're so many such death cases, recently one 16-year-old jumped off the building... so i asked why, and she said its because of love. so i laughed and said, haha... kinda foolish, cos one should never die because of a break up. this was what my sis told me. she said that i should never never die for guys who ditch me. and the first thing i should always remember is that, no matter how sad i get, how much i want to die, i must remember how much my mum loves me. how much effort and hardships she suffered just to bring us up. and when i die, mum will be very sad, because the love she has for you is so many thousand more then how much that guy loves me.

and with that sentence, i'll never comit suicide =) unless an accident brings me away.. then that's too bad XD

back to the story.. yeah.. in one's life, there might be so much up and downs.. and when one bad incident happens, it can just destroy the life of a person.. i don't mean that the person is dead, just that the person can be better off dead.. perhaps the blow of the bad incident is too much for him/her to take? well.. that's the unpredictable part of life.

i miss the beach so much.. how i wish i can be at the beach once again.. not alone hopefully.

hmm.. i tot of something now. you guys know that show, you fu? channel 8 de.. that's a sad story.. rmb the previous episode, where jia ling came back and you fu seems to be confused about his feelings again? well.. that's not the main point anyway. the main point is what jia ling said. she said,"at the starting, when all the words that can be said is said, and when all the things that can be done is done, there is not much happiness to look forward to. life becomes dull and stale, and people tend to get more quarrelsome. and therefore, they get a divorce."

fine.. i think it's damn damn true. cos.. lovers in love will have so much to do, go out and have fun, go to the beach, movies, shopping, picnic, swimming and lots lots more. say i love you forever, i miss you, i cant live without you and lots lots more. and when all the things are done, there is no much more interest in each other and life between the lovers get dull and stale. so this leads to a break up.

so..for me, issit because i have not get enough of that love and thus i clinged on so tightly? perhaps.

-when are you coming back? ;